Opening up my awareness to everything around me through getting back in touch with my body again.
I really want to go on an Animal Telepathy/Communication course to deepen this awareness I am starting to feel. I guess that this is the ‘educated person’ speaking – I mean, thinking that I can only achieve something if I go down the regular channels, attend classes and get a certificate ‘proving’ to others that I can do it. It is a good thing that the teachers I would choose to learn from (Anna Breytenbach or Nancy Windheart) have no beginners courses available at the moment because I do tend to rush straight into these kind of things with full-on enthusiasm and after a while get a little bored. I need to develop some trust in myself that I can see it through to the end first with the diligence that I started out with. So right now I am seeing his lack of opportunity as a blessing in disguise; it means that I can concentrate on some personal development first, dig deep to see if this really is a thing that I want to go ahead with and start to practice.
Through Nancy’s site I clicked on a link she recommended for a free introductory course on somatic meditation at Dharma Ocean, which is to do with clearing blocks in the body. It is a recording by Reggie Ray, which guides you through the reasons behind doing this type of meditation and some sessions in which you have an opportunity to actually practice it.
I have been told that in regards to re-forging a connection with animals, we do not necessarily have to ‘learn’ how to do it but rather clear away any obstructions so that we can remember how to do it. We as children, inherently connected with everything around us until structured education (reading, writing, logical thought etc.) and other ways of being here in this modern world (body repression, reliance on machines, social conditioning etc.) forced us to shut down that communication. It is as natural a process as breathing and it is the way all sentient beings communicate with each other (and indigenous people still do).
I am going to start to work with my body awareness through Reggie’s meditation sessions. I am going to clear away the blocks in order that my body becomes more sensitive to itself, its surroundings and of other sentient beings (i.e. everything). I think that this is as good place as any to start as I wait for the Animal Communication Training to become available. The first couple of sessions will be a challenge for me; I have always found it a struggle to connect with my body but as Reggie says, we must let go of the need for an outcome and learn to ‘be’ within the process itself.
I have already been quite successful in tuning into my surroundings though, in a kind of externally-focused meditation of sorts by taking a Nature Awareness course with the Wilderness Awareness School and starting a daily sit-spot practice, where I do nothing but observe the wildlife in my garden for a certain period of time every day. It has opened up so much of the world I had been ignorant of and taught me about the intricate lives and relationships of the animals, birds, insects and plants that inhabit my surroundings. I had been kidding myself thinking that their world was any less complex than mine and I have become very humble about this fact, turning to them for all kinds of things; peace, entertainment, connection and solace.
Compared to the many ‘wishful thinking’ conversations I have had with Juno, which have been rather cloying and seemed to only have served to abate my grief, I have also had a couple of messages that I feel must have absolutely come from her. Although at this point I have no way of proving them to be real, they had such a different quality to them that I know I am starting to move along the right track with all of this. They were visceral (seeming to originate from a bodily sensation rather than from my normal thought processes), instantaneous – shocking even, they went against what I imagined I should be hearing from her and they felt independent of my own Being; they came and then were gone in a very sure and certain way. These are the key features I am going to use in the future to discriminate between my own self-talk between what I think of as my dead dog and me and a real message that has come directly from her through her one free will. I am going to start practising this with other animals too and I know that I have to concentrate more on getting in touch with my body as I understand that these messages bypass the brain and the more I can sensitise myself to what I am receiving through these channels, the more certain I know I will become.
Little by little it is starting to come together.